Seen

I went to the ER the other night for some abdominal pain. Sitting here now, with some intermittent pain still and no definitive answer, I find myself swimming in my anxiety. This is where I feel exposed. This is when it feels like I’m on display. All of my shortcomings, my anxiety, my inability to … Continue reading Seen →

In All Your Ways

My favorite verse is Proverbs 3:5-6. I can quote it without even thinking about it. It’s one of the few sets of verses that I don’t find myself second guessing the wording or the reference. It says “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your … Continue reading In All Your Ways →

Lies & Truth

It has been a while since I've allowed myself to write publicly. Not for lack of thoughts. I have LOTS of thoughts. So many thoughts, in fact, I pay someone to help me sort them all out. Counseling has become a vital aspect of our family, and we would not be here without it. A … Continue reading Lies & Truth →

Unexpected

I didn’t want to do a podcast. I’m not great at speaking. In fact, I’m pretty terrible at it. I get nervous, I stumble over my words, I flat out forget common words. Sometimes I even forget whole sentences and don’t complete my thoughts. Which, you can actually hear in our first 4 episodes of … Continue reading Unexpected →

Providence

This season has been exceptionally long and hard. Every one we know is experiencing the heavy and the sad. We all go through seasons of darkness, where we walk through traumatic hardships. Where we wade through the deep dark scary places in life. Ask the hard questions, make impossible choices. Deal with the consequences of … Continue reading Providence →

Our Loss

“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will hear you. You will seek me and find me, when you seek me … Continue reading Our Loss →

By Jesus Alone

We live in a teeny tiny town. A place that almost seems silly to call a city. 1.5 miles square and 1500 (or less) people. My high school had more people in it than our town does. Far away from what I would consider normal (you know, somewhere that has a Target). But over the … Continue reading By Jesus Alone →

Jaded

We love each other because he loved us first. If someone says, “I love God,” but hates a Christian brother or sister, that person is a liar; for if we don’t love people we can see, how can we love God, whom we cannot see? And he has given us this command: Those who love … Continue reading Jaded →

Beauty within Tragedy

How can God allow this to happen? Why do bad things happen to good people. (Enter any other cliche question here) Disasters happen every day. Someone somewhere experiences sudden loss or devastation. The result is usually us questioning how a loving and compassionate God could allow such tragedy to occur. However, the flaw is not … Continue reading Beauty within Tragedy →

Arrogance is Bliss?

I fantasize of a world many would label as utopia. Except my version would be more OCD than most. To cope with various trials in my life, I have developed behaviors and disciplines that I deem to be "common sense". I actually get mad at people when they do not do things my way. Which … Continue reading Arrogance is Bliss? →